Well this hasn’t been the best of weekends. I didn’t get time to sit down and ponder my existence until early Sunday evening. Saturday I worked, worked on the house and worked on a PC. Sunday I spent with B (which I’m not complaining about) but that could have gone better, then I had a nice hour long argument with his grandfather (my ex-father-in-law) about the sanctity of fatherhood and how he was trying to de-nut me. Ever want to reach out and snatch the life out of someone? I have a nice list of 6 if you want to lend a hand.
By stating that in a post I understand that it may constitute an episode of CSI or Law and Order.
It’s times like these that I sometimes miss having someone around. Luckily these are few and far between.
So, I finally got time to think and be by myself for a bit. I thought of this. It is when man does not follow his nature, whatever his nature may be, that he creates his demons. Internal and external demons. I have a strong personality and I can be controlling. But at one point in my life I gave up control of what should have been the one thing that I needed to be a part of. Thus I created a demon that has just now been realized. Just now am I ready to fight. Hope I win.
Today, I woke up oh so tired. Going to start out as a bad week. Hope I get the “call.”